Broken Forever

Yes I can not forget you like this,
I see my heart crying in its every next crumb.
To love you is not that easy,
I always feel helpless and numb.

Imagining you with someone else,
That feeling makes me fall apart.
To love you means hating my destiny,
I am failing to convince my heart.

In every other quote and poetry,
I see myself shattering in tears.
To love you means to live with this void,
My nights are sleepless and full of fears.

I am tired of searching for you,
I am tired of this suffocating pain.
To love you means making my soul lifeless,
I am afraid of losing myself again.

My days are haunting me,
I am on a war with emptiness.
To love you means walking alone,
I am unable to express.

Whenever I look at the sky,
I just think of the old days.
To love you means staring at the moon,
And my playlist that I chase.

I wish I could just rewind,
And would not look back ever.
The worst condition to love you is,
Ah! To stay broken forever.

Your Voice

The colour of that faraway day is in the white clouds that a faded blue blurs...
Inside my heart is a pain hidden from all.

The words into which I put my all already become distant.
In the midst of your loss, even now, you keep me warm.

Your voice is the light that silhouetted you.
Should it materialise, I would live on,
that my voice might reach you, wherever you are.

Resounding from the sun-drenched rails is the voice of that distant day.
Beyond those clouds, even now, there is the place of promise.

The loneliness that persists from some time ago is the spirit that grates me all around.
In the flow of time, I will surely lose you.

Your hair, with the world where cloud and sky have melted, is full of secrets.
Your voice, your gentle fingers and your wind-touched skin
will make my heart strong.

Causing my heart to quiver, even unto eternity, is your back turned to me.
My wish is merely that I live on,
that my song would reach you, wherever you are.

Your voice is the light that silhouetted you.
Should it materialise, even though we live in different places,
I would want to, gently and resolutely, live.

Shattered Soul

Heartbeat falls upon deaf ears,
Slowly take away all my fears.
Coldness closes in all around
As your shattered soul falls to the ground.
Teardrops fall from the skies,
Raindrops form in your eyes.
The hurting goes so deep.
Starlit sky burns out as you weep
Tears of fury, cries of hate,
As you curse your destined fate.
Your wall breaks down, exposes the world outside
And reminds you of every time you tried
To be perfect for the one you love,
To be like an angel sent from above.
Reminding you of all you couldn't be,
You chose this lie, wove this fantasy.
You wanted happiness for a while, at least,
And by doing so you unleashed a beast
That took the happiness, left only pain,
Turned your world black, your dreams now slain.
As you know, she broke your heart,
But your soul was shattered from the very start.

Far Away

The meaning of love, the feel of it, the theory of its relativity
I felt just as imaginary as these things


Will we meet by the time I grow up?
There are tens of thousands of songs about love, I wonder if I’ll know what they mean


But love wasn’t a revolution, frustration, or some cataclysmic event
It was you


The way you laughed was somehow similar to loneliness
The way you sang was like today’s morning glow


Instead of worrying about what humans will be doing thousands of years from now
I’d rather see you laughing, with a face no one else knows


I don’t have it. I’m made of things I don’t have
You’re what gives me form


You’ll laugh when I say that, won’t you?
I find myself longing to see even that face


Until this day, I’ve only used my heart for myself
But you suddenly worked your way in, and it’s a huge inconvenience, like a massive traffic jam


But then you say the one thing I want most in the universe right now
You say the words


Your voice was like my mother’s humming
Your silence resembled the stillness of night


It doesn’t matter what color the earth will be in tens of thousands of years
You’ll still see me laughing, with a face no one else knows


Hundreds and thousands of times
You’ve seen me… heard me… and you don’t even know


“If only you were here…” “If only you were here…”
No matter what terrible form the words that follow take


I can take those words in my arms
Because the despair I face with you shines much brighter than any hope I’d see without you


The way you laughed was somehow like tenderness
The way you sang looked like today’s evening shower


Instead of worrying about what humans will be doing thousands of years from now
I’d rather see you laughing, with a face no one else knows


I don’t have it. I’m made of things I don’t have
You’re what gives me form


I’ll shout your name until my voice gives out
If there’s a chance I can reach you, I’ll call out now

Confessions

How long has it been since I started seeing myself as part of your future?
Or thinking it’d be nice if your future, and my future, could become one…


…how long has it been? It’s embarrassing, so I won’t say—
Let’s just let our futures become one, starting today.


Faced with the task of creating just one smile, I’m the kind of person who breaks into a sweat watching from afar.
But looking over the crowds of people in my life, there was just one thing beautifully out of place:
The very soul of color… in other words, that was you.


“I found something precious.”
That’s the voice that I heard from somewhere deep inside me.


I’m so surprised someone could dominate the center of my heart like this;
Everyone says there’s nothing completely certain in this world… so let’s secretly make something that is.


The strength of life… the frailty of tears… stand out a bit too much on this planet.
But if it was the gods of this world, getting too far out of hand, who sent you to me…


…I’m really so thankful. I’ll say it again and again:
Thank you so much.


Allow me to say something serious;
I’ll break the seal on my untapped courage, right here and now:


I’m so surprised the center of my heart… can be so fulfilled by someone else;
Everyone says there’s nothing completely certain in this world… but y’know, right here, we’ve got something that is.


Let’s catch a cold together!
Let’s get a head start on a 3AM dream!


How long has it been since I started seeing you as part of my future?
Let’s view your future, and my future, as a single source of meaning… from today, right here.


I’m so surprised someone could dominate the center of my heart like this;
Everyone says there’s nothing completely certain in this world… so let’s secretly make something that is.


I’m so surprised the center of my heart… can be so filled up with someone else;
Everyone says there’s nothing completely certain in this world… but y’know, right here, we’ve got something that is.


We managed to make it just now.

Moon That Moves My Tides

Better today than I was before,
in this moment with the one whom I adore.
Take the fall, take the risk.
Maybe end up twisted, tangled, worn out, missed.
For the things that we go through behind closed doors,
make me crave you, wanting more.   
But in the end it will be just you and I,
as the moon rolls in and brings the tides,
as the sun dances about the sky,
radiant of warmth, beauty, and light.
The cold moon chases the sun,
hoping to catch a glimpse of its beautiful light,
but is forever condemned to dark of night,
giving meaning to the passage of time.
Each giving their best til each day is done,
the moon will never stop craving the warmth of the sun.

Everlasting til death do us part,
For you are the one whom I have devoted my heart.
For I am the moon that moves your tides,
and you will always be the sun that dances across my skies.
Though you may not see me, I am always there,
I cannot deny that I still care.

Morning Moon Over The Ocean

Morning moon over the ocean,
Faithful light on the sea,
You help me realize
The man I was meant to be.

There are times in one’s life
When you walk into the wind,
But if the ocean moon should show,
It will help you see within.

Some of it is pretty,
Most of it is bad.
It is only then you realize
Exactly what you had.

Morning moon over the ocean,
Precious light on the sea,
An end to my darkness.
A new day dawns for me.

I’ve failed so many times
To open my eyes to see.
So many were the signs
And hints you gave to me.

I grew into a man
With a heart made out of steel.
Over the years I never saw
The hurt that would never heal.

Morning moon over the ocean
A sure sign from above
That my lonely nights may be ending
With the hope of your great love.

I wish that I could travel
In a ship just for a time
And make a long, long journey
To the day when you were mine.

A bribe for the ferryman
To transport across the sea,
To arrive on the shore
Where you again wait for me.

Morning moon over the ocean,
Faithful light on the sea,
You help me realize
The man I was meant to be.

Hurting

Lying in bed, my eyes resisting to close.
Thoughts and anger I try to dispose.
Thoughts of you stain my mind.
So many questions with answers I cannot find.

Hurt and confused as to why.
You'd always say you love me, but that was a repetitive lie.
I gave you all my love, but it wasn't enough.
Breaking my heart, you thought it made you tough.

I don't know what it is that you gain
When you push me around and see me in pain.
Do you feel empowered? Do you feel strong?
What did I do to you that was so wrong?

You ripped and shattered my soul.
Now all that's left of my heart is one giant hole.
Nothing but emptiness and darkness take its place.
My heart vanished without a trace.

My Sorrow's Song

So here it goes,
My sorrow's song.
A song that's short
And not too long.
A silent pain you'll never feel,
A broken heart that'll never heal.
How do you kill a dying love?
One that you thought was sent from above.
One that brought so many lies and tears.
One that you swore would last through the years,
But now I lie here,
Broken in pain,
Clinging to life,
And whispering your name,
Now realizing you were never the one,
But now it's too late, 'cuz my song is done.

I Want To

I want to write about how you make me feel,
How every time I see your face I know that you're real.
I can't describe the feeling you always raise in me.
I can't describe this wash of happiness that you seem to bring,
But I want to write about it; I want to write about you.

I want to write about that day we shared,
How every time you would laugh it would linger in the air.
I can't describe the loving look in your eyes.
I can't describe the reason why you won't say, "Goodbye."
But I want to write about it; I want to write about you.

I want to write about all our memories, all our stories, and adventures,
How we conquered them together,
But I can't describe the paths we took.
I can't describe the sense of security I felt in that one look.
But I want to; I want to write about you.

I want to write about us,
How everything felt was true love, not lust,
But I can't describe anything without you.
I can't describe all our hopes and dreams,
How everything that was so perfect left in a fleet of screams.

I want to write,
But I can't explain how our plans got so disarrayed,
How God just had to take you away.
I can't describe this sudden feeling I have to be by your side,
How even through death I have to hide all that I feel inside.

I want to write, but I forget how to describe what is meant.
I want to write about you, but I can't.
I can't describe the feeling of lost, the feeling of what it all cost
Or of the silent screams, the lovely dreams with just you and me,
But I want to.

A Secret

As I rub both of my eyes…

…and open my eyelids,

It remains, the afterimage of that night.

As the piece of memory sinks into the pillow,

I saw the dream of that summer night.

With my faded senses…

…still not returning,

Those hands of yours, I will hold them…

…until your warmth has spread on me.

It is a secret…

…that what I saw in that dream…

…on which I recalled…

…has made me happy.

It Is a secret…

…that what I saw in that dream…

…has become true…

…within your warm arms

In the dream that won’t end

As I rub both of my eyes…

…and open my eyelids,

Today, I saw the same dream again.

Is there more you can do for love?

Is there more you can do for love?
I was born with nothing
Stumbling around in the crevices of eternity.
Only the resigned and the wise
Where do we breathe in the age of the victors?
Rulers and gods are strangers to us all.
But you know what's really going on.
The magic of courage, of hope, of bonds.
They don't know how to use it, so they turn away.
And yet, you were still there that day.
I'm in the middle of all my righteousness.
The world turns its back on you, and you're still here.
You're still here, standing up to me.
Is there more love can do?
Is there more I can do?
You gave me the courage to do this, and I want to use it for you.
The love I share with you means nothing if it's not with you.
Is there more love can do?
Is there more I can do?
Fate, you mean, is it a roll of the dice?
Or is it God's usual whim?
Chosen to be the armor that cannot be taken off.
Or the far-reaching, unwavering will
Unfulfilled wishes, unfulfilled reunions, and
The unraveling misunderstandings, the hatred that piles up...
Voices of forgiveness and hands clasped together
This planet is still alive today.
Is there more love can do?
Is there more I can do?
You gave me the courage to do this, and I want to use it for you.
The love I grew up with, it's nothing if it's not with you.
Is there more love can do?
Is there anything more I can do?
Why let us dream when we have nothing?
Why do you make me hope for a life with an end?
Why do I keep giving you things that slip through my hands?
And still we cling. Are we ugly?
Or are you pretty? Answer me.
Love songs have been sung about it, told about it in countless movies.
I was born and bred in such a wilderness... and you...
There's still more love can do
There's still more I can do