I could

I could dream of you forever,

But it wouldn't put me beside you.

I could call your name on end,

But you'll never hear me.

I could ask a million questions,

But I'll never get the answer I want.

I could write a hundred poems,

But you would still never understand.

I could have said it before it was time to leave,

But I said it in a little note.

I could try to forget what I feel,

But I've pushed too much out already.

I could lie to myself,

But lying exhausts the soul.

I could give up on you,

But too much of me still loves you.

What I Miss

I miss how we used to be,
So vibrant, so honest, so wild and free.

I miss the way you would understand,
Listen carefully and be there when I needed a hand.

I miss our long, random talks at night,
Our private conversations,
Our silly little fights.

I miss the way you could read my mind,
Know what to say,
When words were hard to find.

I miss the way you could brighten my day,
Make me forget the mistakes,
Make the pain go away.

I miss how you made me laugh,
Hate how you made me cry,

Loved how you said you would always be there,
But once again, I forgot that everything you say is a lie.